urgency

What exactly is everyone's hurry? It seems like evryone is super eager to get things finished, not considering that patience and deliberate pacing lets us cherish what we've done. Even if it's something you don't like doing, slowing down enough to notice the details will make you appreciate what you're doing, if only because you noticed something insignificant, but new.

Some people can't sit in one place and enjoy the scenery. To them, all things must interact, actively and obviously. Sitting in a room full of server racks at night, with the only light being the soft green glow of status lights, would make for a night better spent sleeping. So eager to live, they claim, but so eager to sleep? And not even enjoy the sleep. They wake up early and miserable the next day to pump their bodies full of caffeine so that they can "carpe diem" then brood over unfulfilled expectations.

Then again, is it really living if all you do is exist? I feel fulfilled by doing what I'm doing now, which is slightly more than existing, but feelings usually can't be trusted. I'll get to that one later. Anyway, if all it took to be happy was to be happy, then there probably would be more relaxed, apathetic people in the world. Or more suicides. Either way, there would be fewer people wasting their time trying to make the most of their time by wasting their time and money on books and seminars about finding happiness. I don't have a problem with the pursuit of happiness, but I am confounded by folks that make themselves unhappy by the desperation they create when faced with an imaginary abscence of joy.

I guess what I'm saying is to let go of the things that cause your problems, and in reality, those things are just one thing: the fear that you're going to be unhappy all the time. It's never that way, unhappiness is never real.