urgency

What exactly is everyone's hurry? It seems like evryone is super eager to get things finished, not considering that patience and deliberate pacing lets us cherish what we've done. Even if it's something you don't like doing, slowing down enough to notice the details will make you appreciate what you're doing, if only because you noticed something insignificant, but new.

Some people can't sit in one place and enjoy the scenery. To them, all things must interact, actively and obviously. Sitting in a room full of server racks at night, with the only light being the soft green glow of status lights, would make for a night better spent sleeping. So eager to live, they claim, but so eager to sleep? And not even enjoy the sleep. They wake up early and miserable the next day to pump their bodies full of caffeine so that they can "carpe diem" then brood over unfulfilled expectations.

Then again, is it really living if all you do is exist? I feel fulfilled by doing what I'm doing now, which is slightly more than existing, but feelings usually can't be trusted. I'll get to that one later. Anyway, if all it took to be happy was to be happy, then there probably would be more relaxed, apathetic people in the world. Or more suicides. Either way, there would be fewer people wasting their time trying to make the most of their time by wasting their time and money on books and seminars about finding happiness. I don't have a problem with the pursuit of happiness, but I am confounded by folks that make themselves unhappy by the desperation they create when faced with an imaginary abscence of joy.

I guess what I'm saying is to let go of the things that cause your problems, and in reality, those things are just one thing: the fear that you're going to be unhappy all the time. It's never that way, unhappiness is never real.

Snow Day!

Yay its snowing again!

I fucking lurve snow

That ain't no hydrogen

The first element in my "Periodic Table of Shits"

Too be perfectly honest

I don't take these blogs to be all that serious but if some people out there are really out there and they take the time to read them, then I undoubtedly have an obligation to fulfill in writing at least one.

Hopefully I can gain a couple of fans or perhaps a legion to do my bidding, thus making me indestructible.

Here's a list:

1. If you're playing Delta Force: Black Hawk Down, a dick move would be to wait till everyone has just become snipers, then get in the helicopter. No one can hit you with a rifle and when they fire, they reveal their position, so you can just mini-gun the shit out of them.
2. Once you have enough money, a good idea is to buy a truck. There need be no rational reason to own one. When you use it to move a washing machine or gravel or pull a car out of the snow, you really feel like the truck was worth it, even if you never use it again. You'll just remember that one time and you'll constantly be compelled to own a truck.
3. A third item.

As you can clearly see, there is a great number of reasons to blog apparently.